Reflections of My Senior Year
This month we have a guest blogger, Elizabeth Haslam, Class of 2020
As a senior, the world we currently live in is most certainly not how I pictured the last semester of my final year of high school to unfold. Initially, I tried to remain optimistic and hoped for things to not escalate to the doomsday predictions of the media. However, as this global pandemic unfolded, I soon realized things would very different for an indefinite amount of time.
I soon realized many things I had been looking forward to for a long time would soon be taken away from me. The first of these things was our senior class trip to Disney. The suspension of in-school classes was next, and there is still uncertainty of how long this will continue. This meant I would not get to complete my two favorite independent studies I had designed for myself as a Pottery V student. I realized three-hour AP exams I had studied and prepared for all year long, would be completely changed and something I had not been preparing for the whole year. I also realized I would not get to have Decision Day at school where we get to wear our college gear to school, pin our names on the board in the Guidance Counselors’ Office, and receive a celebratory cupcake as we embark on the next chapter of our life.
Furthermore, I realized it was a possibility I may not have my senior prom. I was looking forward to my last high school dance with my boyfriend as the year was about to come to a close. Further still, the worst of all I realized that graduation as I knew it will most likely not occur. This was a very painful thing for me to realize, as being a Junior Marshall last year I had the privilege of watching the Baccalaureate Mass, Class Day, and the Graduation Ceremony, and was thoroughly excited to participate next year as a graduate of the Class of 2020.
It still breaks my heart thinking about it, as I have been dreaming of walking across the stage and receiving my diploma since I was in Kindergarten, as I have always been very studious. In addition, there is the possibility of my family no longer being able to travel to see me graduate because of concern for COVID-19.
Throughout all of this, I have been very frustrated. Particularly as the first major worldwide incident to occur for myself and my contemporaries, during my senior year when I was about to close one chapter and begin the next. I have felt robbed and betrayed by the world. However, I had to take a step back from all of this and realize there are worse things that could happen to a person.
I take comfort in knowing I am at home, safe and isolated, doing my part to help flatten the curve. Furthermore, I was extremely thankful to learn that Mrs. Shaw assured us we would have some sort of graduation, even if it was not on May 26th. Additionally, I am happy for my class, in Student Council, we are working to figure something out for prom and find ways to bring Bishop together, despite the distance.
After having these reassurances, I could not help but feel guilty. I realize experiencing the emotions I have is only normal, but I realized I am one of the lucky ones. I immediately thought of the young men in World War II and the Vietnam War who never got their senior prom or their graduation, and I could not help but feel guilty that some of these boys never returned home to even have a proper funeral. I also realize I am home safe and sheltered, while healthcare professionals and other essential personnel are working overtime, risking their own lives to help fight the “invisible enemy.” It is this remarkable response in the healthcare field, that I can clearly see the passion for helping others. It has further reassured me of my desire to go into pharmacy.
During these difficult times, there is no other school that I would want to be a member of. Mrs. Shaw, along with the counselors, administration, and our teachers have worked tirelessly to ensure we all maintain some level of normalcy in our lives during these difficult times. It is